I hate being inconsistent especially when it comes to my relationship with Christ. It’s funny that the most important relationship I have, gets put on the back burner most of the time. I can’t just put my marriage on hold and get back to it when I have the time. I have to constantly be listening and communicating with Laura, finding out what she needs from me. If I put that relationship with her on hold I might find myself alone one day.
Why is it that I feel like I can give God my left over time? Or I’ll have a real encounter with the Lord and feel like he’s trying to do something new in my life and just drop the ball after awhile. I hate that and I’m not really sure how to get out of that rut. Sometimes we talk about God’s grace and mercy so much that I wonder if we use that as an excuse to be flippant with our faith. I do believe that God’s grace is huge but I don’t want to cheapen it either. Maybe I’m being too honest but it is what it is and God still has a lot of work to do on me.
Its about time some one said that. God’s grace is massive, but we take advantage of it. The thing i hate most is that these issues are too big for me to wrap my head around. Thats when we HAVE to trust God to guide us through. Maybe sometimes the best wisdom is asking God for wisdom?
By: Brandon Tomlin on July 2, 2008
at 11:01 pm
Incidentally, I have the same problem. I am really good at being on fire one week and then freezing the next week. I don’t really have any words of wisdom to impart, I am just letting you know that I experience the same thing a lot of the time.
By: Austin on July 3, 2008
at 5:05 am
I echo the statements from the guys above me. now try having time after wife and 3 kids?
dare i use that as an excuse? gulp! i hope not.
i think part of the solution is community and accountability and the other part is sheer discipline and finding that thirst again. easier said than done, right?
By: choocho on July 3, 2008
at 2:28 pm
Good post.
Ditto
By: Hudson on July 4, 2008
at 3:40 am
I feel ya Jimmie! It’s like the Derek Webb song, Wedding Dress.
i am a whore i do confess
but i put you on just like a wedding dress
and i run down the aisle
i’m a prodigal with no way home
but i put you on just like a ring of gold
and i run down the aisle to you
It’s so true. DWebb also talks about being satisfied by the call of lovers less wild. Many times in my life, I’ve experienced the wonderful communion with my Lord. Then, like you said, it hits the back burner. And life goes crappy.
Thanks for sharing Jimmie!
By: Mel on July 4, 2008
at 3:49 pm
JIMMIE!! I miss your face!
I feel what you are saying in this blog posting. I love Jesus so much but I feel like I hardly ever live up to my side if the relationship! It’s so hard for me to believe that He just doesn’t become bored of me and just throw His hands up at me to leave for the wolves.
I thank Him for grace, because without it, I would be nothing!
The Sepulveda’s need to come see you guys in Austin!
By: Heather Sepulveda on July 9, 2008
at 4:34 am
Bro!!
Now that you are back in Texas we can finally hang out
But in response to your blog . . . all I can say is, “SO TRUE”
Well, I am not married . . . but in response to the 2nd paragraph
By: Eric Guajardo on July 13, 2008
at 10:45 am