I hate being inconsistent especially when it comes to my relationship with Christ. It’s funny that the most important relationship I have, gets put on the back burner most of the time. I can’t just put my marriage on hold and get back to it when I have the time. I have to constantly be listening and communicating with Laura, finding out what she needs from me. If I put that relationship with her on hold I might find myself alone one day.
Why is it that I feel like I can give God my left over time? Or I’ll have a real encounter with the Lord and feel like he’s trying to do something new in my life and just drop the ball after awhile. I hate that and I’m not really sure how to get out of that rut. Sometimes we talk about God’s grace and mercy so much that I wonder if we use that as an excuse to be flippant with our faith. I do believe that God’s grace is huge but I don’t want to cheapen it either. Maybe I’m being too honest but it is what it is and God still has a lot of work to do on me.
